Couldn't help it, but these two years have flown by rather slowly...but surely :)

First thing on my mind today when I was going through birthdays on facebook....Saw that the girl that I used to have a crush on...has the same birthday as my tormentor cum superior in ns...haha...what a coincidence...or a date I probably wouldn't forget for some time...

Would just like to summarize my thoughts on ORD, (first things first the events that have transpired over my long long ns life...)

1. Enlistment into BMTC

This, is truly, a milestone that I would not soon forget in the years to come, even to this day, after two years of serving the nation, that day would forever be etched into my memory. From the lining up at 8 am in the morning for the bus to changi ferry terminal, to the long and seemingly forever ferry ride to the cursed island, many thoughts rushed through my mind then, it was the most depressing moment of my life yet worrisome and uncertain...there was the worry for the A level results that were to come out in 8 days...as well as the chinese new year which just passed and then coming into a life of depravity and desolation (at least that was what I thought when I was going to enlist)...The day, however, did pass quickly enough. Following the parents' departure, it was just a matter of going through motion and following what I was being told....keep reminding myself that I was experienced in this (from my NCC days) yet another part of myself still keeps telling myself that I am in no way prepared for regimentation to this level...

After meeting my PC and PS, who were seemingly nicer than I expected, the next step was...the seemingly daunting and neverending 19 weeks ahead of me...how I was going to interact with my peers in the platoon. Naturally introverted, I do know I do not possess the gift of the gap, yet, I know I would have to learn it somehow throughout this mandatory process that every Singaporean male would have to undergo.

In the coming weeks, PT sure enough was tough, with my Sergeants fierce yet humour filled interactions with us, as well as a sergeant that was in ORD mood (Sgt Desmond :) ) really, I do miss that particular commander that showed to us a more human side of NSF commanders. Stories that we do hear about NS, can make me roil in my bed during the nights before enlistment...No doubt, the commanders that I had during my BMT make me grateful that they were at least humanly reasonable. Of course I did not walk into Tekong expecting to be treated like a young lord, but they at least made my expectation of BMT less horrifying than what I initially thought it was to be.

The following weeks rolled by and eventually the platoon bonded, all 60 of us, maybe excluding that guy from china who really has a huge language gap with the rest of us. Not speaking a word of English other than 'Fuck you' which he learnt from the commanders, it truly was difficult to assimilate him into the NS lingo...well, there were certain individuals who were fighting to enter command school (mayb a little too hard...) at the expense of the rest of the platoon. Most individualistic was this particular person, shankra, who was seemingly friendly, but yet at the same time backstabbing anyone whom he deemed as a threat, as well as to 'wayang' as much as he could...which we all could see very well and particularly no one needed to spell it out as it was too obvious...well anyway, this guy probably got the short end of the stick and did not even make it to command school at all...(serves him right)

Pop neared, and we eventually grew happier with time, and even despite the constant efforts by sgt vignesh to say 'you pop so what, you still come out as a private only...' well, at least we're not a recruit haha....

2. Turn Left to Heaven, turn right to Hell

Well, block leave came and gone, and when we recieved the posting of going to 30 sce...immediately googled it...and was immediately disappointed...with a massive sigh...i remembered the day when I got the posting...I just sat there at the computer, sighing away, despondant after reading so many forum stories about the unit...lol...

First reaction when posting in...saw another guy dragging the duffel bag...asked him...30 sce right? he was like 'sigh...............'

well the days of training were pretty much better than bmt 'relatively' however, there was this insecure spec, sivakumaran...sigh...keep asking about his command style and how is it like when obviously it's very f***ed up...well, him aside, the other specs were pretty much okay and humane...which I must mention my PC. He for starters, can be seen as a guy that really really tries his utmost best for the welfare of those under him. The things which we enjoyed under him would not have been possible.

3. HQ coy, Hq coy HQ coy, we are the best, we are the slackest, we are the HQ company!!

Shortly, after completion of the cbt engr courses, I was posted to S1 department as a clerk. Which I remained till this day. Posted to S1 department with this other useless guy...chen desheng...haha the scores of stories about him, are legion...there is really no limit to how much a person can prove himself to be so unwanted and useless (as proven by chen desheng..) then of course, there are a number of people within s1 department whom have really impacted my life and I still have vivid memories of them (whether fond or not...)

and not to mention my dear twh lol....truly a bittersweet (more bitter than sweet tho..) relationship...the scores of stories I could talk about him, (not to mention even a non stop 6 hour bitching session about the same person...) still...

4. NDP Experience

30 SCE was tasked with the role of handling some major aspects of the spectator managment committee, which I was involved in the orange sector (denoted by seat colour hehe), was a fun experience no doubt, with us burning saturdays and getting our mondays off....enjoyable no doubt, getting to skip a day of office with twh is awesome haha....well...not to say the least, got to meet some interesting people at ndp...heartware ushers were fun :)

5. HR audit

Lol...to say the least, the most inhumane part of my ns life and if i were to post any details here....it would draw too much flak lol....

6. ORD

and last but not least, ORD!!! This has really been a long, interested and meaningful two years, longer than i would have wanted to stay but still the journey has finally come to and end....everything that we have bitched about, gossiped about, worked hard for, is finally...over

ORD LO!! 3:57 PM

Just had a really meaningful outing with my ex upper study yesterday. When he was still around in camp, I kept wondering how it would have been like without him, how the office environment would change. Yet, now...2 months after he has departed from the office, the environment has changed in too many ways for me to count...but 1 thing is for sure, he had a really inexplicable role in the upkeep of (at least my) morale in the office to a normal level. I wonder if it really is 'absence makes the heart grow fonder' but till this date, I do feel the gap left by him when he ORDed...What is left, is a group of people who are forced together by fate and not by choice, resulting in a really convoluted and twisted environment that is really mentally unhealthy.

After the meaningful session, he made me appreciate (to some extent) that I am in SAF...and the tribulations that I go through currently is merely a trial and one of the many milestone in my life that I can still afford to slip up and fail...Much as it is unpleasant for me to undergo punishment in SAF and to burn my time that I can spend 'out of camp' it would really be something meaningful as this period of trial has and would really test me and prepare me for future tribulations...

Looking forward to ORD now has both a pleasant yet uncertainty to the feeling now.. 3:08 PM

11:17 AM

My first time posting from camp...

Man, this is getting really depressing, not only is life in camp getting more down, I am somehow losing sight of any form of happiness anymore. Even though ORD these three letters are coming slowly but surely...but it sucks when people who seem to thrive in such a convoluted environment are putting me down...Even though he is not one to speak of unpopularity, but yet he is still ever as irritating as ever. pressures from different bosses are really still crushing and (almost succeeding)I'm barely coping with this onslaught of being squeezed from both angles.

There really is some form of delight to be had when one boss is not around, yet somehow I am not feeling so...I dread that this may have after effects that may be more persistent than I may like it to be...Going on facebook used to be at least an escape from this twisted and convoluted environment that I am forced to live in 5 days in a week. Truly this is unhealthy to my mental state. Depression seemed like an act not too long ago, however it has in recent times, start to, slowly but surely, becoming more a reality.

9:27 PM

My weekly post I suppose, or rather to keep my writing skills from degrading to that of a caveman standard...Anyway, the month is almost over...the pay of 440 is only down by arnd 50...2 more weeks to last...sigh...gotta get through the next week...saving more....dunno what I am suffering for anyway...Nights out...play DS...(pokemon black any1?) then at most eat dinner go back camp....my save $$ scheme for the next 2 weeks....mayb next next month promote get another 30 bucks...but not so soon la...

Went to marina bay today, saw really...singapore has such good scenic spots lol...didn't know that little corner of singapore...The view from marina barrage is just sad lol....but the view from the marina bay that raffles place mrt corner...is magnificent!! too bad i didnt take any pictures, kinda lost the habbit of taking pics when army kinda bans all kinds of camera-like things....(from handphones to anything that snaps a picture...) Well anyway...the coming week is gonna be short!!! 4 day week FTW muahahahaha.....yet another week gone liao....and 305 days to ORD!! wow...how sad is that... 10:05 AM

Hey, 4:05 PM

Wow...to think that after such a long while of not blogging I would actually be happier off...but no..same old shit in the world happens...dad gets emo...life gets shit...whats worse was that he actually thought he knew better when he didn't...if there was a penny for every time he said something like its like the commonest of common sense...and he was wrong...i'll be a billionaire by now...well greatest shitty christmas ever...stayed at home to listen to his ranting...again...wtf man...old man needs some1 to put him in his place like very urgently... 12:56 AM

lol, its beeen 10 weeks into the army already...thats really really fast...yet when im in there...time slows to a crawl...omg...everyday...we wake up...wait for 5BX, then go for breakfast, then wait for first parade and wait for first activity...second activity...then lunch...then prays it rains...third activity...fourth activity....still praying it rains....then go for dinner and wait for last parade...hopefully no activities after RO....then go for admin time bathe etc and talk cock...lol...sleep rinse n repeat...lol...wow what a really fulfilling life man.... 7:35 PM

bah...back from camp again...blogging in the middle of the night just waiting for my wow to finish installing lol...anyway...training nowadays still very slack comparatively...just hate the bloody gym trainings...where i do like freaking 200-300 pushups per session lol...sbjl...had thigh pains these few days man...when climb staircase want die sia...then when doing squats all want die liao...ippt is soon....seriously hope i pass so i dun have to do RT lol...can stay at home slack n all...haha...gotta remain my weight or smth lol...or will have to go for RT next wk lol...then my weekend next wk gone liao lol...anywae nthn to do atm...tata~ 2:02 AM

ahhaha...back from tekong...now on to A level... RESULTS!!! sighzz expected this day from many weeks ago liao...so by now i should have been better mentally prepared right?? no!! as usual...im a nervous wreck by now...sigh...last night had an epic nightmare...actually woke up with tears....that scary..sigh...omg...hope i get into the course i want....and ppl arnd me are like saying to pray for them and all..but im truly too scared for my own results to pray for any1 at the moment.,...and Im like WTH now...gonna die from heart attack before the day is over...and gonna spend the night again at camp...wa liu...sigh....at least i took a nice luxurious bath already...gonna see classmates soon...dunno how much some have changed...pppl say that jc peeps change drastically in appearance after the school term lol...lets put that to the test hehe.. 1:32 PM

HARHARHAR GONG XI FA CAI!! 9:48 PM

I've had it with my lousy mouse!!! went out with my friend yesterday to eat some wonton noodles at KOVAN, hahha, one of the best ever :) He ever ordered extra large portion on top of wonton and soup lol....after that, we went Sim lim square to look at stuff and I bought a RAZOR Salmosa Mouse!!! for a really good bargain!! (11 bucks off!!!) lol, now having NO troubles at all with my mouse. LOVELY hehehehhe. 10:52 AM

Wooot....resolve to blog today has driven my hand to type this post after a very long hiatus lol...anyway...after a long long long period of going out with friends almost every day is truly fun but tiring lol...especially with the activities that we do lol....ice skating/bowling (every day...)/cycling and etc hiking??? haha...and lastly...today was the climax...the SINGAPORE FLYER!!! haha....it may be expensive...(super super...) but the people I go with make it worthwhile lol....something money can't buy...perhaps...happiness...will try to blog bout the conclusion of the 2009 year soon lol...coz...I'm now really dead beat...after a whole day out...hahaha...also lazy to upload photos to com atm coz need to install software...truly...tata~ 11:30 PM

oh man...the biggest headache is going for a potluck....got nothing to cook and therefore nothing to bring...worst of all...they say dun bring any junk food...now i'm out of ideas....wth..........x1000000 4:02 PM

hahaha i know its a bit lag lol but yea gonna post on prom... 10:35 AM

Went to the gym yesterday for the first time!!! in hougang summore...lol so far away....ran 2.4km n cycled bla bla dunno how far lol...on the whole...what i got was an aching body zapped of energy, after that i was orignially planned for going sim lim sq to get parts for com....but then, stupid standard chartered run must take place and block off so many roads....wa lao....since only free to go sim lim on sundays, i gotta rot another week before i get a com...omg...this is FUCKING KILLING ME!!! i hate this man...i seriously swear my dad is doing this on purpose out of his superbly unlimited cheapskateness.... 9:57 PM

ARGHH!!!! OH MAH GOODNESS!!! the letter has arrived...!!!! the long awaited yet long detested letter of enlistment....even as I was mugging for A's...its been a constant issue in my head lol...blehzz...25 Feb....hahahaha....what a wonderful day....i'm going krazy... 2:41 PM

Truly...the most irritating thing on earth would be for people not to reply smses at all...especially with people whom you know to reply immediately to not reply an sms....thats infuriating....tried selling some notes recently...and wth....ppl dun even bother getting back to me...its fucking irritating....the least i should expect would be a 'no' or not interested or smth lol....silence is the worst coz u leave the person waiting for a reply only to never receive it....god damn all who do such things man.... 11:54 PM

WOAH 2012 was a blast!!! haha seriously one of the best movies to date lol...from the superb graphics and the almost literally chair grabbing thrill of when the plane they were in not make it...lol...and the explosion of the yellowstone super volcano was just spectacular lol....cannot imagine the amount of money they spent on graphics lol...they had to render the entire of the whole of california breaking up and on top of that....arnold had a cameo in announcing some speech in the movie before he was killed in an earthquake lol....the ground literally came apart!! haha...techinically they din show arnold but with that unmistakable accent...who couldn't tell lol.... 12:56 AM




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